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What time is it? Where am I? Am still here? These questions have been in the forefront of my subconscious the past few months. When it comes to patience, i don't have it (ok maybe a little, i obviously hve the patience to write this blog) 

I have been so busy the past couple of years planting my seeds and now years later....where the heck are the flowers? You know when you've work so hard to achieve something or to get somewhere and you are at the place where you can see it but you can't touch it? You've been moving at a rapid pace during planting season and now as you wait for the birth of your plantation you feel like your are creeping towards the birth. All of a sudden everything has slowed down.

You feel like the universe is screwing with you, teasing you, taunting you, daring you to lose control, lose faith, lose perseverance, lose courage. Forcing you to question the reality of your actions and the steps that you've taken? Or rather you could have done something differently? Or perhaps do something to speed things up?

And its funny how it happens to, it's a feeling that comes about abruptly. I mean for days, weeks, months; everything was calm with no hurry because somehow you know it's not quite time yet; and then one day you wake up and you want everything NOW. What happened, i've been waiting for days, weeks, months for this, why haven't I seen results. And one day you wake up and you see the fruit but it's not quite ripe...oooh! it's like a sting in the heart. You almost there, you just have to wait a little bit longer....tick, tock, tick, tock!

In a world govern by oppositional extreme forces..where does patience exist in the realm of reality? Is it action or reaction?