A spring evening feels more like summer.....

I've been away for a while...there really is no excuse for being away, just taking a time out i suppose. A lot has happened to me since I last wrote - some i'd like to share others I prefer to keep with me. I've been keeping myself busy working as an adjunct professor and spending quality time with myself doing fun activities.

Summer is fast approaching in NYC - the weather is getting warmer by the day. I feel this weather will be settling in nicely into the summer. It's 9:45 pm and it's about 75 F outside...muy caliente indeed.

Ok, i'll be honest, I am having writers' block. I don't know what to write about - I can't find any interest in writing. I don't know if it's the situation that I am in - not really doing what I studied to do or simply that my creativity has been shut down. I'll be even more honest, it scares me feeling this way.

Writing is my life line without it I feel numb and akward. There is more to the story of my life than just living it - writing it is a part of my life too, therefore I feel crippled without it. The worst part is not knowing what to do, to tap into my creative side.

I wonder how long i will have this feeling? I sure hope things begin to look up during and after the summer. It must, because there is no alternative for me. Without writing a part of me shuts down and for me to be whole again i must have all of my parts functioning appropriately.

Until it does, i guess I will be writing about my frustration - I will work through the angst.